Sunday, November 24, 2013


From a shoot a few weeks ago, Crazy makeup!


Had a fun week with Luisa here and now she left, got bored and did some drawings. Going away to Cambria tomorrow to celebrate Thanksgiving



Wednesday, November 20, 2013


I think.... went out to the bungalow last night and had a great time, drank one or two mojitos more than I should have hah.

Today I have some important and exciting meetings and I need to get rid of my terrible hangover NOW

Sunday, November 17, 2013


I love this new belt I got last sunday

Right now Im just chillen and waiting for Luisa to come here all the way from sweden, So excited!

Saturday, November 16, 2013


I have got soo much positive reactions from all kinds of people, old friends, new friends, strangers, well ALOT of people, Ive received emails, calls and text from people that want to show their support. Several people have also wanted to meet with me and buy my story for a script!  I really didnt think it would get that sort of attention, I wasnt sure that anyone would even read trough the whole thing!
Dont really know what to say I just wanna let you all know that Im very thankful for all your kind words and support <3<3



Its getting cold in LA and I realize that I dont own any real warm clothes, basically left everything I own that has to do with winter in Sweden. I want a a leather jacket and some cozy sweathers!


Thursday, November 14, 2013


Got all the pics from the shoot today, I love them!! Thanks to the talented photographer Martina Pantzar! Here is some of my favourites;

Top and Skirt from : Nasygal
Hat: Bebe

Top: Nasygal
Shoes: Vince Camuto

Shoes from: All Saints (LOVE that store)
Fur bag: from Thailand. not sure if its dog or cow fur :S :/ lol

Tuesday, November 12, 2013


Photo by Maria Pantzar

A little sneak peak from yesterdays photoshoot  

Shirt is from Nasygal
Finally got my leather skirt from Fairfax/Melrose trading post

Monday, November 11, 2013


In the morning Id like to have a glass of
  • Half a lemon
  • Cayenpeppar
  • 8 oz water
  • (sometimes organic maple syrup) but that not necessary if youre just drinking this as a morning drink to get your body working and burn calories. This is also used as a cleanse and you drink 6 glasses everyday and NO solid food or whatsoever for 14 painful days! I couldnt do that Id start shaking after 2 days of no food. 

Sunday, November 10, 2013


Yesterday it was Timothys b day and we went all the way to Pasadena in the morning to be in a electrical bike shoot. Had a great time and the photographer was hilarious! The pics will be on the ads on facebook also in their shop in Santa Monica and online shop

Then we went to his family in Malibu and had dinner, were supposed to go out afterwards but we were too tired hah

by the way, Im obsessed with this jacket from 2ND DAY, but they dont ship to the US :(

Also this heavenly piece from Wanderlust 

Thursday, November 7, 2013


Last night we were out and when we got back we got the very bad idea of playing with the fire extinguisher and we were just joking around until my stoooopid roomate actuallly sparayed me 2 times and I couldnt breathe and my hair and clothes were all fucked up. 
this morning I woke up at 6 and went for a morning run, but I couldnt do it for long because I started coughing and throwing up blod. Now Im laying on the couch reading about the dangers of inhaling it and it says:

It's poisonous, containing mostly CO2 (carbon dioxide), which causes you to slowly suffocate. It's a compressed gas and can cause your airways to freeze which will kill you in a very painful, slow way. You'll probably get a headache and pass out before-hand. 

Its not that bad but coughing blood is never good..... :(

Wednesday, November 6, 2013


Everything they say in this video is so true it gives me goosebumps. I love this magical city even though Ive been very hard times and MANY GOOD and special ones. I love this city more than anything and It was the best decision of my life to come here.

 Im here to stay.

Sunday, November 3, 2013


After I got robbed (and physically and mentally abused daily because of his insecurity and insanity) on the 4,000$ by Babak Rachpoot which was the money I spent on the awesome apartment at Palazzo, I was homeless for about 3 weeks. Thank god I had Timothy by my side. First we stayed at his parents house in Malibu:

 and it was all good. Until we couldnt stay there anymore because of my cat, so we slept in the car, at the beach:

 and at friends places but mostly we actually slept on Park la breas rooftop. Its a 12 floor building and I actually loved it, well the first night at least

Imagine falling asleep to the stars and the view over the whole town and wake up with sunshine and start tanning naked, since nobody is around lol. I dont like tanlines...

It was though but we made it trough it, I think its a good life experience that not everybody gets to experience, it made me grow in many ways and realize alot of things. Now were living in a temporary place with awesome ppl in our age. We always have a great time

 Im very open about this because I know that there is other people struggling as well but it will eventually be okay. Just keep your head up and try to be positive and thankful no matter what situation youre in.
Be very careful with people, they can seem totally normal at first and then they suddenly turns into monsters. If you EVER just even ONCE get abused, physically or mentally GET THE FUCK OUT. Run away from that person and never stop. seek help for protection and youre never alone, there is always people who can help and you shouldnt be afraid to ask for help. its the only way. "If he does it once, Hell do it AGAIN, and again and AGAIN.
thats just how it is. dont let anybody own you, decide what to do or try to put you in a Burka.

Let me tell you about my horrible story in this subject of DOMESTIC VIOLENCE:

I lived in fear everyday, somethimes I woke up by a kick in my back in the middle of the night and then another punch, just because he had a dream (!!!) that I was flirting with other guys. He kept me up almost every night and tortured me asking the same questions over and over again and punched me in my stomach until I lost my breath

This is the same guy that I mentioned at the top. He was physically and mentally abusing me everyday because of his insanity and insecurity. Ive never been treated like that in my whole life, he usually strangled me until I really thoought I was going to die, several times I saw stars and got blackouts but then he woke me up by pouring Ice cold water on me while I was laying on the floor crying for help and for him to stop,. my mouth was bleeding and he kicked me, after spitting on my face several times. Imagen, a 23 year old girl (hes 33 years old)  in the stomach so hard like I was a man. he did that a lot because "It didnt leave any bruises' he said with a smile.

At the times when I was the most broken down he started filming me laying there crying and say stuff like " why are you such a disgusting little whore, pathethic."

When we went out walking on the street and a guy looked at me he called me a whore and explained how he was going to kill me when we got back to the house. Describing how he was going to cut me from ear to ear and cut off my tounge, pour acid on my face so nobody would ever look at me again and at my friends

Every night he kept me up beating me so much until I was crying and screaming of pain, until the neighbours came to save me, they knocked on the door saying " I know that youre beating the shit out of your girl and Ill call the cops!" then he chased them away with a knife and went back into the room to torture me. I felt so hopeless behind those walls. There was nothing I could do besides from crawling up in a corner with my suitcase and my cat and pray for him to stop hitting me.

Several times he drove me up to the hills or the desert to "kill me where nobody could hear me scream"

He even THREW MY CAT INTO THE WALL AND THREATENED TO KILL HIM . with a disgusting smile on his face ofc.

I tried to leave several times but he wouldnt let me and when I layed on the floor unable to breathe and bleeding he went straight to my clothes and jewelery and destroyed them and my computer.
He always took my phone and saved all my contact numbers and made me write reallly mean stuff to any guy friend that wrote to me. and when I refused then he destroyed my iPhone totally, smashed it in into pieces and pour water on it. Then after 2 weeks i begged him for a new one. He got me a new one but at the second day he destroyed that one too.

I couldnt wear makeup to school because then he thought I was making myself pretty for the guys in school that I was "flirting with" it was all in his fucked up head. I couldnt wear what I wanted because then I was a Whore. I lived in constant fear of saying something wrong to get him to explode, it was enoght by me saying the word Thailand and He got furious and beat the shit out of me.

He lied to all his girlfriends and cousin, saying that I was an escort! Which was not true at all and he called me WHORE, FAT and he always said that no one respect me and that even my girlfriends didnt want to have anything to do with me and all my guy friends just wanted to fuck me. He said I was worthless constantly, that all his friends called me a whore and a user and gave him tips that he should sell me like a whore and make money of me. because thats all I was "a whore" then somedays he begged me to have his kids and marry him....... DISGUSTING

He shifted from raging one moment and the next he was crying beating his own head with a shoe and then he went back to abusing me again,

I had so many bruises and people started question it and I had to cover myself up with long sleeves in the middle of the summer. He forbid me to talk and hang with anyone and he even got jealous of my girlfriends saying that they were lesbians and they wanted me.

one day I escaped with almost all of my stuff and me and Aloe had to sleep behind a KFC in an alley until a guy from my school helped me and gave me somewhere to stay for the night.
Now he is living in the luxury apartment in Palazzo that I PAYED FOR. WITH ALL OF MY FURNITURE.

this is just 10% of all the terrible things he did to me. Be careful with people, they seem normal at first but once they loose respect and think they can own you youre screwed. be especially careful with Persian PAPARAZZI stalker guys.

Love CC

Saturday, November 2, 2013




watching jefferson

Best lawyer evah



Was just as crazy as last year up in West Hollywood, SOOOOOO many people and all streets were closed down. I think La's whole population was there and everybody is dressed out til MAX, GREAT costumes . I was gna take alot of pics for you guys but I forgot my memory card at home,.... !!!! last year my battery died.

reallly annoying!!

Anyway I didnt prepare my costume at all because I had no time so last minute I decided to be Bambi or a Deer, that has been my dream costume for years

I had one Black contact lens in my left eye


WOW! Hey guys, remember my old blog? I just found it and Ive been reading trough it all or almost, Im on page 49 HAHA . SOO many good (and bad) memories. But im really funny, cant stop laughing at some posts! It is all in Swedish but on the top there is a translator so you all can read it :)

heres the link

I love it, Ive had the craziest, most adventured life and I dont regret a single thing!