Friday, April 17, 2015

HEY NEW FRIENDS

I am getting more offers than ever, modeling acting, travel, trips and god it kills me, having to say that im not available right now. because I suffer from this damn injury still.  (SCI)  

(ALL tips and help is appreciated to speed up my recovery! like surgeries, Treatments, doctors, alternative methods. anything really)

I will not worry because I know that I am right where Im supposed to be and time is not relevant.. It will all be okay. everything is coming together and there is no reason for me to worry or stress. Patience and simplicity. I am willing to let life love me

Just a little note to the ones that doesnt know me and my current reality and a note to myself :)
Im back in LA very soon. 





Wednesday, April 15, 2015

MIRROR WORK & MEMORY MAKING

I have done some mirror work today, you simply stare yourself in the eyes and say, I love you *your name* and it will be really weird and also difficult in the beginning because you will probably start thinking about all the things you dont like about you... and if so then start off with saying I am WILLING to love you *ur name*
I myself are forgiving myself. "Chloe Cole I am willing to forgive you" I do this about 6 times a day and changes are already happening :)

Dont forget to follow me on IG #ChloeeCole

A few days ago me and Joakim had some artsy time haha I love this clip, "JAG SKITER VAL I MIN HAND" hAHA


video





oh hi

Sunday, April 12, 2015

FUCK SCI!! BUT HERES SOME HELP... LOL

Oh my sweet, sweet heavily ass motherfuckin Lord! I am so sick and tired of DIS SHIET. I have been trying to search for TIPS for spinal cord injured people, like how to treat the crap and get better. But ALL I can find is how to take care of your "dear spinal cord injury"
People LOVE to TREAT their illnesses or injuries. Especially hospitals. :) thats why its called a Sjukhus in Swedish, a "SICKHOUSE" what genius came up with that name huh?

ANYWAY
I would like to be the (apparently) first person to provide tips on how to get better, and to help your body on the road to success!
These are some small tips that I have found out trough people and such. I personally know 10 people who were all spinal cord injured and theyre all back on their feets, running jumping and what not. It took some of em, a month, a year, a year and a half, 5 years. Doesnt matter cuz I am just saying that its absolute not impossible.  Then theres ofc all the rest of the "famous" people who started walking again.

Bill Bartman who was paralyzed from the waist down.  Now Bill can walk like a normal person.  He used the power of the mind and  total faith and belief after doctors told him that he would never walk again.  He also became the 25th richest man in America as well. He tells his story of how he walked again in a book called "Billionaire Secrets to Success"

Every single one of them have been told by doctors that they will never walk, or regain any function. Everyone is different, like snowflakes we all heal differently and ITS ALL IN YOUR HEAD. ALL IN YOUR HEAD  thats why were now able to get the HAL robot legs that lets a person with a complete injury, no movement or feeling walk and go up stairs etc. its connected with signals from the brain to the legs.
SO FUCK YOU WHO SAY ITS IMPOSSIBLE!



now, some simple tips (there is like a thousand more but they are a bit more complicated)
  • on the picture I have made circles where you can massage (to get oxygen to the spinal cord, which is what it needs) on the bone under the knee for example with two fingers. Above your big toe where you can feel the small bones underneath, massage it gently. and also upper thighs, in trough the fat on the bone. Your stomach will move so then you know its the right spot.
  • eat loads of vitamin C, find out where you can get the most out of it in the most potent natural form like dried "havtorn" berries.
  • drink something called MSM (Methylsulfonylmethane) it helps the cells to breathe and its good for alot of things Google it. I buy it in stores with horse supplies instead of the health stores. Its cheaper and more pure actually!
  • drink natural cranberry juice, if youre not already. No sugar. No urinary tract infection.
  • Do not own your injury, dont talk about it more than necessary, do not listen to negative people. Visualize youself being completely back to normal, and feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel your legs like they used to be.
  • LOVE yourself! DUhhhhh 
  • always try to move toes, legs everything. it sends signals to the brain. 
  • lie on your stomach as much as you can to stretch out your hip
  • I know a way to learn how to pee without using catheter, its TMI to explain here tho. but if you need help.. well yeah 
  • Crystals and gems are magical. trust me. wear em, have them close to you.
  • stay away from pills that are not absolutely necessary. NO Lyrica pls. stand the nerve pains if you can and say NO to anything that will take away you reflexes or spasms. They are positive and you will need em. ;)  
  • UPDATE: Did you know that you can talk to your cells? they listen and they renew and regenerate themselves! You can also listen to these Binaural beats:



This is it. I am not goin to talk about this anymore because its making me sick. I just really wanted to help you out a little, do not lose hope and you do not have to accept anything or listen to what anyone says except yourself.

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BECAUSE ITS YOUR GODDAMN BODY!

Saturday, April 11, 2015

DONT MESS WITH THE SUPREME

Oh hi, woke up fucking early today from a sharp pain in my heart. Welcome to ReALiti ! Did my eyebrows yesterday, I think she made em too thin :( but they will grow out,.. miss my fav in LA always doing it perfect.
Msg me if u want her info btw!

I heard about a girl who fell from the same building as me but from the 7th floor, she died instantly. then I know about another one that fell from the same height as I and also died. I was right cuz I always thought that I felt alot of bad energy there. like living there was just really heavy and yellow lights.
great view but thats all. I get the creeps thinking about that place, there was never really any peace among us and I was always SO tired.

Wish No 2 , that I could go back in time and RE-DO everything. say yes yes yes to good shit. I have been told tho that I was NEVER lazy. just depressed. so thats a little comforting knowing right?
esp since ive been driving myself crazy because of all the great opportunities that I backed out on for no specific reason, just  being tired (depressed)

ah what silly fucking issues I had, compare to the ones I have now. Im not gonna address them and give em fucking energy but thats just that.

 Life is beautiful, really it is.. Full of beauty and allusions.
Life is Great. without it, you'd be Dead.


Tuesday, April 7, 2015

INTERVIEW NO. 2

from the last interview I did for Kvallsposten. Damn I need help with this, I need to walk now

Saturday, April 4, 2015

WISH #1

When Im gone I want to no special funeral or coffin. I want this https://urnabios.com/
The Bios Urn is a fully biodegradable urn designed to convert you into a tree after life.
Mainly composed by two parts, the urn contains a seed which will grow to remember your loved one. Bios Urn turns death into a transformation and a return to life through nature.
 I want to be a cherry blossom tree. (or a palm tree) somewhere in Los Angeles, I want no one to waste time visiting me, only when Its blossoming. Then you will remember that I am finally in peace and please be happy for me.
No more suffering




REMEMBER ME

Remember me when you're the one who's silver screened
Remember me when you're the one you always dreamed
Remember me whenever noses start to bleed
Remember me, special needs


Remember me when you clinch your movie deal
And think of me stuck in my chair that has four wheels
Remember me through flash photography and screams
Remember me, special dreams


So weird that the "special needs" Placebo song has always been so special to me and now its so unbelievable accurate.

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

TO LIVE WITH DIGNITY. TO DIE WITH DIGNITY.






I am laying  in bed listening to Lana, looking at old pictures and crying. I really screwed up this time didnt I? I do not know how many days, minutes, seconds that I can stand this life.. It has really come to an ending point. a person can only take so much. A 25 year old shouldnt have to go trough all of this. I dont think its fair that we dont get to decide over our own bodies in sweden.
I am Pro Dignitas in Switzerland. They have clearly understanding and compassion for their fellow humans.
Do you think its fair to keep someone in constant physical and mental pain alive? just because you love them or cant handle something as natural as death..

I think its sick that I am alive today, a person with those kinda injuries should not be brought back to life. But ofc I should be grateful for the amazing job the american doctors did, putting me back together. but then it went wrong..

I would have been grateful to still be alive if I was able to LIVE. I am not alive. I look, (and Im good at it) alive sometimes, smiling, but its not real. It hurts and everything reminds me of my life, when I was living my perfectly weird life. but I wasnt done yet.

every second is like a lifetime in darkness and fear.

I went to have lunch or something today at a great place at the beach. It was sunny, but what does it matter.
I need a big  change now.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

MAKEDOWN !

 

Made this video today when I realized yesterday how funny it was that Im actually using an eyebrow pencil from Ralphs and 99 cent store makeup stuff. I am not doing my makeup this sloppy usually of course, its just a quick funny run trough, but yeah I am using the weirdest stuff and I need a make-up-update
I have been given 90% of all my makeup lol
SO
I want tips on your favorite products!

FOR THE ONES LIKE US , WHO ARE OPPRESSED BY THE FIGURES OF BEAUTY

So. beautiful.


Saturday, March 28, 2015

KIDDD


I won this hand painted n hand distressed shirt from Kid Richards a few days ago, but I kinda already knew that I would , I had this strong gut feeling you know. Love his photog skills!

I have some other news and things to show you later but I have been sick a few days now.. I am not feeling great.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

SHAMANIC DRUMMING

this hang drum is my new obsession, I love the soothing amazing sound it makes. I have never been one liking to play any instrument but id totally buy one of these! They go for as low as 200$ on ebay

♪ Listen ❤


Sunday, March 22, 2015

ITS SO G, IT'S ALMOST H



okay so heres the video I promised but I drifted away a little least to say haha, and yeah it turned out to be 30 minutes! even though I talk with the speed of light lol

Love C

Saturday, March 21, 2015

DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR ANSWERS?

Hey Ill be doing a video blog where I am answering any question or responding to any opinion that you have and also talk a little about what ever comes to my mind. so feel free now to ask anything


Friday, March 20, 2015

ANOTHER INTERVIEW

So another newspaper contacted me, Kvallsposten and they wanted to hear my story as well. Theres a couple of stuff that I felt like I missed to say in the last interview so I hope it got said in this one. there will also be a film clip.
I think it went well



I would love if you could comment with some suggestions on what you would like me to write or blog about. I have a functioning camera again so Ill def do some blog videos but I would like to know what you would wanna see


Saturday, March 14, 2015

STRAIGHT FROM THE BRIGHT SIDE OF MY HEART

heres the link to my interview http://www.aftonbladet.se/nyheter/article20455874.ab
Hello everyone, you've found my blog :) I have received so many messages and emails, even letters from people all over that wants to help me and I am so overwhelmed with love and its going to take a while to respond and read it all.
Its making me super emotional and as soon as I read the first sentence in a mail the tears are running and im having trouble reading because of my water filled eyes haha :')

 I am the type of person who feel everything so very deep and lately it has increased, it can be too much to handle sometimes. like I mentioned in a post before its like -Love OD, so many of you touch my heart in a way you probably dont know
but if you read this I hope you understand how much it means when you beautiful strangers are offering to help me and take your time to do so...
We are all one and I realize theres so many who understand this, Ive met too many people that are asleep at hospitals the last year.., and god it made me feel so alone.
but now I know
there is so many people that are awake and Im more than grateful that you have reached out to me

Im sending all the love and light I possibly can to you

♥ ✴♥ ✴


Saturday, March 7, 2015

SOMETHING TO THINK N GROW ABOUT



Can anyone understand the meaning of this text mind-twisting text I wrote down as notes in my phone a couple of days ago?;

Imagine finding my key chain or something like that.
You pick it up and take it home. You have no idea how much I miss it or what it means to me because all you see is the key chain. You dont see my face drenched in tears because I lost, to you, a worthless key chain.
just because you havent seen my ad or tears for the horrific loss of my chain
  it does not exist to you,
Its almost like the love for Wilson in cast away.
Thats how much I miss that, to you meaningless chain.
will it exist once you know my feelings for it, or will you still see just a key chain?

...............when you look at crap in a lost and found box, then literally think outside the box and try to see something else. feel something else.

maybe you will realize something about whatever that you didnt even knew existed


ONCE UPON A TIME THERE WAS A GIRL WHO DIED

the interview with the newspaper and filming went good. I hope my main message will be clear and that it will lead to something good. if nothing else then at least justice. for all the shit ive got from the swedish hospitals and "rehabs"
heres some bts pics haha






Tuesday, March 3, 2015

INTERVIEW FOR AFTONBLADET TOMORROW



Today has been a really bad day... I realized "my reality" again and how much that I have to go trough still.
writing about it makes it easier to see whats wrong and how I can fix it. I can either chose to panic and see everything as impossible or to just know that it will work out somehow. It will be scary and uncomfortable but then also it can be simple and easy, everything will unfold itself.
the worst part that I cant deny is that I DO need help from other people, I am used to not having any need of someone else but myself and now I am not even able to take my own body around.

for example; I used to hate walking on the little asphalted roads around the grass cuz i felt like a sheep just following others footsteps so walked on the grass instead, taking shortcuts, making my own ways. Now im almost forced to go on the roads people have built for us and I hate it.

People are unfortunately almost always huge disappointments and they flake and flake until you are too tired to even care anymore. so who am i supposed to rely on when I cant even rely on my own body anymore..  there really is such a thing as "being too nice" I didnt know until now... people take it as a weakness or they still treat you like the devil. so please someone tell me where does the line go?
There is nothing sure about my future and of course that is scary. but I cant stay where I am, I am not happy here, no help will come from this place.

             Tomorrow will be a better day and I will see things more clear, I have to go up really early because a news reporter with a film and photo team is going to interview me for their magazine and do a short video interview for their webb tv as well
YAY! I have so much to say! finally :D
wearing cashmere hair bev hills


FOR SALE

This is the same length and thickness of the extensions
I just want to let you know that Im selling stuff on Cityboard.se and its swedish but I can be contacted here or on mail if some of my international readers are intrested in High Quality Clip in hair extensions, Gamecube games and other stuff. Check it out im shipping worldwide :)
heres my account:

http://citiboard.se/personen-10206227985173313/

me without extensions, my hair has been growing! but very very slow :/ 

Saturday, February 28, 2015

ANOTHER USE OF OLD TEA BAGS



 I just wanna give u a great tip for you tea drinkers and beauty junkies! (if your not one then you will be after reading this)
never throw away your tea bag after using it. it has to be one of those pure teas with no shit in it, natural ingredients (no0 lipton shiet lol) . Green tea preferably, I use that and peppermint and energy tea. I put them in my cold water with lemon and let it soak in a big pitcher

when ive been drinking all the water I NEVER throw away the bag. I squeeze it and put it on my face for a couple of minutes and I love the feeling afterwards. it takes away acne and tightens the skin immediately and I can imagine it pulls out all the toxins from the skin as well

heres some other great uses for your old tea bags in my opinion:

  • Soothe a Blistering Sunburn 
 Due to its antioxidant activity, the topical application of green or black tea bags may actively fight cancer formation by stopping cellular mutations. find near-instant relief from sunburn by applying brewed tea bags directly onto sunburned skin. Allow the bags to sit on the skin for 15 to 30 minutes. Repeat as necessary.
  • Get Rid of The Redness on Your Eyes
Put a couple of teabags in cold water and let them soak for 2 minutes. Place them onto your eyelids. Let them rest there for a couple of minutes. After you put them away the redness will be gone and your eyes will look fresher and more youthful.
  • Soothe Aching and Bleeding Gums
Aching and bleeding gums can be caused by a host of ailments, ranging from a newly extracted tooth to gum disease. Regardless, find relief by biting down on a brewed green or black tea bag. The antiseptic, anti-inflammatory and antioxidant activities of tea bags streamline the healing process while simultaneously numbing pain and reducing blood loss. Repeat as many times as necessary to provide the relief you’re craving.
  • Freshen Your Clothes And Shoes
Store previously used and dried teabags in the closet in order to make your clothes smell fresher. You can also put one of these bags in each shoe. It will get rid of the unpleasant smell in no time.

Sunday, February 22, 2015

I WILL BE THE FIRST HUMAN MERMAID LIVING IN WATER

I will now reveal a plan that I have had in my head for a while now, planning and thinking about everything. (Know when reading this,, I have never been more serious about anything, I am honestly doing this). I have always felt drawn to the water and always wanted to live there like a Mermaid and yall know I love Thailand and Bali (maybe somewhere with better and more still water) so here is my plan:

I will be the first (MAYBE THERE IS SOMEONE ELSE BUT I HAVENT SEEN ANYONE.. IF THERE IS SOMEONE ID LIKE TO KNOW WHO SO I CAN GET TIPS) person to live in the water and on the beach! Since my legs are not working as a humans right now like walking and stuff, I know that under water im like everyone else, I can get ahead like a normal person.
I thought I spend my days layin on a rock, or the beach in the sun warming up for the night and swimming around diving and spending most of my time under water. Exploring.



��    If i get cold? honestly will I? but then I will have a little shelter up on the beach that I can crawl up on and sleep in during rainy nights. otherwise ill just sleep wherever i feel comfortable.

��    Food, water? I will have someone that brings me food n coconut water on a regular basis and stuff that I need.

��    I want to be on a quiet lonely beautiful beach with almost no tourists.

��    I will have a mermaid bottom maid for me to keep me warm and swim easier. (that I will put on whenever I feel like it, not always on of course)

��    Hair situation, my hair will be very destroyed from the salt water and constant sun i can imagine but I will have a miracle hair product fix that ;)

 ��    I will have a floating home in the water also, that will be attached to something so it doesnt float away.

��    I will need a strong travel companion man that can carry me to the beach, anyone whos up for that email me. anyone else who wants to come as well

 if theres anything else that someone can think of that Id need feel free to tell me, and admit it, its not impossible living like this :D I just have nothing to loose, only gain. I will have time to find myself and see things that no one else has. I am not someone that will live my life crippled and sitting down looking up on ppl who fulfill their dreams. I will walk. but until then... I cant think of a better life than this:




Saturday, February 21, 2015

⋆BEAUTIFUL ⋆ SPARKLY ⋆ THINGS ⋆

I have so many beautiful jewelery pieces that I got from my Debbie, mah Love! and Ive been wanting to show it to you for a while now so its time, heres some of my favorites mixed with other favs


earrings to the right

  ♒


 
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 and I have so many more i gotta show ya    ☮▲☨∞▲  ➳  ♒ ♕
 
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