Friday, 19 September 2014


there is nothing to do all days, Im not getting any physical therapy for the moment because of wounds that need to heal... it really brings one down. Id love if you guys could give me some ideas of what you would want me to blog about. I need to get my mind off reality..

I know I should be grateful for still being alive but it feels more like a punishment even thoI dont believe in such things. I keep wonder why me?  why anyone? How come the body allows itself to not function when its all there, I mean I still have my legs so why the hell cant the body keep it together for fucks sake.

Monday, 15 September 2014


I figured, Im still in rehab got nothing to do except drinking coffee and swallow pills for my severe pain in my ribs n back. I swear Id do anything to stop it

pics from before the accident, think it was sinko del mayo or Stinko del mucho..


Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Monday, 18 August 2014


Hey guys.. I want to let you know that I'll be back.
I will get my life back and do whatever it takes, for the ones who doesn't know, I broke 38 bones in a horrible accident 3 months ago, my back included which means that I'm paralyzed from my waist and below.. I'm in rehab trying to regain strength atm.

I wish that I could blog to make time go faster but what is there to blog about... Nothing. I miss my life and every small detail of it, straightening my
Hair etc..

So now you know what I'm up to, struggling and fighting this nightmare!
But I will get my legs back to business and I will live life
to the fullest, more than ever before because I did get a second chance on it.

Much Love ❤️

Saturday, 17 May 2014


You probably already know that I L.O.V.E Nastygal, these babes arrived today to join my collection
They will look great with a maxi dress for example

Friday, 9 May 2014


Received some pictures from a shoot I did with Debbie not too long ago by Rudi.


Im editing a video and I will be doing so forever since im so slow and everything have to be exactly the way I had in my mind. Phew... I keep coming up with new ideas and that slows down the progress even more lol

But basically Ill show you a typical week in my life (unfortunately extremely a bit censored)  it will be very silly and weird ofc. Starring my closest fucking friends: lovers, unicorns, fairies, my precious diamonds that I love to death ♥ ...and alot of Go-Go juice

Oh gahwd im presenting it like its something HUGE! not true. It will be a bunch of clips cut together making absolutely no sense. :D which means a thousand times more entertaining than any braindead Kardashian-alike show ever existed lol

Tuesday, 6 May 2014


I dont know what to blog about! Im really bored and I have no motivation and my head is all empty. Guess going to the gym now is the best thing to do
THEN I will know what to do


I really like this pic even though Im half naked AND I really love my hat as you may have noticed. I need to get a new one, I want a light cream or beige

Its almost 3am and I should get some sleep maybe but Im hungry and I aint got no food...
I always eat in the middle of the night because during the day I have no time or appetite 


I forgot to post pictures from Palm Springs at Coachella weekend! I LOVE palm springs I really need to go back asap

I took a cab to Palmsprings haha

Warm winds <3

I like your style yeah I like ur styleee

Saturday, 3 May 2014


hey there, I havent been to active here because of, well many reasons.. my heart hurts every moment of everyday but sometimes I can push it deeper inside so I wont feel it but then when Im alone its out there all over and around me. ruins me.


On top of that my car got vandalized the other day when I came down and saw it, It felt like it was me that was there, drowned in paint and egged in my face by evil itself. I dont want to go into details but this fucked up my situations in many ways. I had it under control but now I cant help but feeling scared and lost.

My mood changed today when I picked up my little car from the carwash, they had been working on it for 2 days and they got almost all of the paint away yay!

but then the demons comes out again to take me into their dark place, the hole inside me, filled with confusion, heartpain, anxiety and it scares me more than anything... I do not want to manifest anything negative.
Time to change surroundings, time to live, time to NOT GIVE A DAMN. and Ill do whatever it takes
trust me.

Tuesday, 29 April 2014


after 3 days fun away from home I decided to go back (before Aloe died of loneliness) before that i had a shoot in Pasadena and I met this girl Debbie, we talked and discovered that we had ALOT in common and that is just amazing
good friends are rare and dont come around often. Im talking about girlfriends.
we both get along better with guy/gay friends :)
Im going to watch some movies now and draw

Wednesday, 23 April 2014


This is behind the scenes from an upcoming rock music video. I think its hilarious

Sunday, 20 April 2014


Thinking about this "life quote":

“No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.”
― Regina Brett

starting to question it because is it really a wise thing to do? I guess in the long run it makes sense but I have always gone by "live in the moment and do whatever you feel like" I mean why would you force yourself to do something even if you feel bad? because it will make you happy?

On the other hand, should you always do whatever you feel like and not "show up" for example? will that make you happy? Not really, maybe in the exact moment but you may look back and regret it.

This really confuses me and my life choices.. should I start doing things that I dont feel like doing? maybe Ill be happier and have less anxiety OR will it give me more anxiety because Im forcing myself?

I know for a fact that Showing up and doing things no matter how you feel will make me happier in the future but what if I die tomorrow?

ahh I need advice from someone like Dalai Lama


Had a fun night out yesterday and that resulted in waking up feeling not so great... and ofc everything fun happens at the same time, got invited to easter poolpartys, palmsprings etc and I feel way too shitty to even do anything! its soo typical. I need to get rid of this terrible hangover NOW!!!!!

 Pics from 2 nights ago

YAh Im wearing a plastic bag. I totally belted it.

Thursday, 17 April 2014


Around midnight, what is that blue planet?

around 1am

almost 2am

Idk why everyone got so emotional during the blood moon... I gathered some blankes and a yoga mat, drove away and went up to the 12th floor roof on a building.

On top of the roof there was another roof on a little house so I climbed up there and sat/layed and watched for a couple of hours and I felt incredible good. Then at the end (last pic) the moon started to get all white and I got cold so I climbed down and went to Westwood

The next day I woke up feeling calm relaxed and happy while everyone else had "moon hangover" headache and stuff.. Why did I get such positive energy?